Monday, April 25, 2011
For a long time now, I've been wearing very basic, boring clothes. Years of being encouraged to hate my body have made me want to hide it in shapeless baggy clothes. I'm tired of feeling that way, and have taken baby steps toward wearing prettier, more colorful, fun stuff with personality. However, I know that changing my clothes means getting attention, and not all of it favorable. I'm trying to reconcile my desire to express myself more via clothes with people who want to embarrass me for having the gall to do something "different". I don't want to look the same, but at the same time I'm not quite ready to stand out. I wore a dress for the first time in ages recently and some of the reaction was a bit unsettling. But I guess that's the price to be paid for being "visible" again. And I really don't want to spend the rest of my life in a t-shirt, even if it is the awesome "you have died of dysentery" one I found online.